Category: Nat’s All

I Matter, My Voice Counts As Long As I Do No Harm

So I went on my morning walk, time alone to connect with all around me, I saw two hawks,  heard and saw a frog swimming in a puddle of whatever, and then a wood pecker pecking, I heard him/her in the tree and I kept looking until I saw him pecking on the wood. I  also ran into my neighbor, and we chatted for a few minutes.

I always have things weighing in my heart, and I just never know what I will write about until it just flows.

My heart aches and days go by  and I am saddened by the many ugly exchanges that occur around me , in my community, state wide and the world. This is a huge spiritual war, and if people only took a tally on on the things you think are working for you versus what is, you will find just like the minimalists its all clutter harming you. I am not judging anyone, I do not have that right nor do I worry because I am only responsible, accountable for what I put out into the universe. Now I do have eyes and ears of love that let me see through a lot of ugliness, it is what it is.  I wanted to come back home to the girl I always had inside and I am so loved and I want everyone to experience the wonder of it as well.  When I see all the alternative news brothers and sisters who do their daily grind putting out information that they have invested their time researching to bring you back home, it makes my heart ache how they get ridiculed, laughed at, labeled as crazy, they get threatened , just ugly.  Can people not see how tv. movies,  music have degraded humans and their  interactions ? However, those are just actors right putting on a show , however why do people emulate, copy that crap.  I am not saying all actors, musicians are crap, you have the good and bad, however bad wins, is praised every time.

This is a video from a brother Enter The 5t4rz that says a lot of the issues with the controlled platforms such as google, yt and fb.  That harm the good and praise the bad.  Unacceptable and it should be for everyone.

So to all my brothers and sisters who are in the fight , have been in the fight for at least 2 decades, we have to come together and use our voices , we have been doing it for a while we have to take a turn to stop feeding the platforms that hide, shut down free speech guidelines.. There are other options,  choices, I know it has been mentioned for years, well no more talking, action !

Be The Positive Charge, Positive Battery, Positive Energy

Continuing from my last post. Many individuals take in the mis information of their parents and then the information that tv, news, governmental constructs,  etc…all these things are inputs that are poured in our brains ( when did some of us ever think to question all the input ? ) All this outside information cluttering our brain, family information coming in, all these different data outlets, channels being inputted and we are not prioritizing it, testing it, researching it. When becoming adults we are at an age where we venture out and develop some of our own opinions ( most people get drowned out by their parents beliefs and opinions, or others, never discovering their own).  We are not born to be mini clones of our parents,or anyone else, we were born to be ourselves.

So we get to an age where we can defend ourselves physically and verbally amongst  our peers , We start to figure ourselves out and the information bombarding us. We explore our world, we go out and collect more information getting positive and negative feed back.  We get caught in a trap, or traps, of never analyzing everything, we see, hear, read,  etc.. It is like we have this huge data dump in our brains and we are not making sense of it. So this data, some of it ugliness, sadness, that we spin inside us, like a hamster on a spinning wheel, we keep spinning it,( whatever age an individual starts to pile  heart pain, ugly, negative emotional memories ) they surface, we spin them around, they affect our mood,, our health, its spinning so we are missing all the real, that is really in front of us.  We are so polluted between good and bad,  misinformation, cluttering clogging our input, out put, transmissions ( like our computer when it is filled with a lot of files, some of us defrag  our  computer on a weekly bases  to clean up all the junk files to consolidate, figure out what is important and truly needed and eliminate mess slowing it down) .  We need to unclutter our lives our mess. When your house is a mess it gets difficult to navigate around areas of your home, you are walking around things that could be harmful., you are blocked from areas because they are filled with a hot mess of things.  Well each one of us,, our selves is our home, I like to think of my home, myself, with my antena ( it can be emitting good or bad, I believe if your antenna is tuned in its a give and take interaction between you and the universe) on, or I am a battery, that can have a positive charge incoming and outgoing, I choose positive, and when my home is cluttered I can not receive or put out a positive charge. So the only way I Knew to put out the best output was to unclutter, look at all my data, no matter how daunting, scary, the pile seemed. I was not going to be trapped,  imprisoning myself of unknown collections

When we each,one of us decides to finally be honest with him/ herself, to look at all the hurt, anger, pain,  etc…. ugly emotions we have each stuffed down through the years , and the hurt we knowingly caused others, we have to look at all of it, you can not skip or overlook one single thing, otherwise it will still remain. No one gets a free pass, unfortunately we were misinformed by parents who were misinformed by theirs.  We were born into a world that was coded, with symbols, numbers,  colors, designated landmarks, things that we were never taught or told about.  We were given all these rules to abide by and we never thought to really question them.

I felt this video by Mark Passio explains our own individual need for alignment, to make our selves, and our world a better place.

So all children who grew up able to defend themselves, we had old information and constant incoming information we were absorbing, were we really learning from it ? This is where self awareness, knowing ones self, being treated the way you want to be treated is key. Who are you, what do you believe, what are you basing that belief on? How do you interact with everything around you ?   What is your role, your interactions, words, thoughts that you put out ?  What is your responsibility as a creation of all creations in this universe ?   We do not come to understand how significant we each are until we each  become aligned with our own thoughts, feelings and actions. Did you ever hear the terms double speak, manipulate, withhold, hide,secrets,  etc….Our thoughts feelings and actions  have to be saying the same thing.  People can try to deceive, think one way and do another, and they will never get what they want until it all matches, that is when you are true through and through,. each individual has to be thinking, feeling and doing the trifecta, is what is needed, when those three things are aligned, you are in pureness, it all matches, one is not hiding the other, it all matches, so it carries all the positiveness, it carries truth. I believe when you become truth you become in tuned with the all mighty one, because he created the universe in its perfection and you are behaving your way to reconnecting with all that is.

We were tricked to not believe in ourselves and the amazing universe inside us, we are part of this universe , we are earth, water, air, fire, all that was perfectly created. People, human beings can be assholes, can behave ugly but that is because they have not searched internally to face all the things, question all that is in front and not in front of them.  The governmental construct hid away the important and made visible the unnecessary.  For one to get this and be it you have to do your own work, I can not wish it to you.  If your car breaks down, you take it to get fixed. Well why do many not try to fix themselves ? A human is way more important than a vehicle in my truth..  We are beauty, love we just have to remember that everything of beauty is in all of us, you just have to discover it and express,  its beauty expressed through your  thoughts , your sound, words, typing, videos, photos, everything that you put out has a matter weight to it, so make it matter or do not..

I Am Ready For The New Restart

It is a new year and I am hoping that we will create, come together around each other, family, friends, community, the world. There are a lot of things going on in our world that a lot of our brothers and sisters are not aware of.  We are in a battle of good vs evil, there are many groups around the world fighting, traveling, typing, blogging, pod casting, you tubing  coding, and decoding ,true information about the real truth, the real true world that was and has been hidden and unknown to us.  The wonderful people have been uncovering the information decoding the symbols, numbers, the worlds geographical latitude and longitude, the monuments, around the world and all there true meanings surrounding them and us.

So I have been posting their (labor of love) information on my fb page for a while, it is important to share . I can not capture everyone, however I appreciate you all. I have been somewhat low key, I have been voicing my concerns about everything through my blog since 2009 and my fb page since 2010. On fb I was not very supportive by liking or commenting on individuals work because I was afraid that I would lose my privacy, or be messed with, I’m ashamed to admit it however I am all in now.

I have a little concern, I have posted fb and you tube videos  by Cindy Kay Currier, periodically mentioning her in my post. Yesterday I was going to check in to see what she had to say and discovered that her  Rise Together yt channel,  as well as fb, page have been taken down.  It will be disturbing if powers that be took it down, Some truth channels were having strikes and a block put on them, is it the same thing happening to Cindy? And what about people questioning her validity, I say yes question, however, I did not discern that she spent at least 4  years making tons of videos for nothing.. Is  the verbal exchange real, or is it just moving the  energy around ? Another thing, I am questioning , why I am not  seeing, the “for the people, for the world” groups have much interaction with each other, some voiced coming together in concern of their channels being taken down , however I do not hink there was much visible evidence of that, (if it is happening behind the scenes, great!) so  there has to be a coming together, even if it is behind the scenes, you are all different, yet sharing similar intent. There is a difference when you disagree with someone  versus being fake, ugly nasty, so  the bigger the numbers, the more it will drown out the self replicating, powerful ugly data machine.

When Did Suing Become Business As Usual ?

I think the pivotal case that took law to an ugly unaccountable place was the McDonalds coffee case.  I know since that verdict, lawsuits have been many, and many frivolous ones. People have lost their common sense, and deflected their own accountability  for their part in a careless, ridiculous suit.  We make choices everyday, however we do not want to accept the consequences or our involvement in the matter of dispute .  People believe corporations have deep pockets, let them pay for our inconveniences, but really the money comes from all of us.

What about those ridiculous personal injury commercials where one of the persons in the suit says their attorney got them 100,000.00 dollars. The idea of making big money by suing is wrong.  I thought ambulance chasing was illegal for attorneys, are those commercials just as illegal ?

Nat’s Movie Pic, How Do You Know

How do you know,  The best scenes in the movie for me is the hospital scene when long time boyfriend proposes. He knows she is a worry wort but instead of seeing her as a neurotic worrier, he sees her as having  a beautiful big heart that is overly caring. Another moment is when Paul Rudd’s character(George) gives Lisa(Reese Witherspoon) the play doh as a gift and its meaning.  In our search for the right fit, the person who we choose as are life long partner, has to get you, understand you, the movie delivers the message.  When you get or appreciate the meaning that is illustrated or interpreted by the body  of work, art, its wonderful.

We have different was of learning or understanding a thing. Sometimes it is by images, by reading, by doing, film, music, that we get the bigger picture or the picture is presented to us.

Nat’s Movie Pic, Cake

Cake made the list as well.  The marriage between the director and actor is magical in a great movie.   The actor has to be believable, embrace and relay the characteristics of the character they are playing. Aniston’s character is in constant physical pain, in addition to something else, (won’t reveal) and she displayed a super performance.

I watched three movies Wild, How Do You Know and Cake this past weekend.  I enjoyed them.  Two of the movies were based around loss, the death of  a loved one.  I lost my dog and I miss her terribly.  My dog Sandy was one of a kind, beautiful, smart, loving and a family protector. My seven year old niece and 6 year old nephew bring her up periodically, out of the blue, they say how they miss her. I use to take them on walks with her, she was always around.

I arrived home 30 minutes ago and I am watching World News Tonight discussing the blizzard storm in the North East Area of the U.S.  I wish all of you well and hope the storm does little to no damage on its path.  Be safe.

Nat’s Movie Pic, Wild

I loved the movie  Wild, loved it !   It had my favorite two things in it, nature, ( in its awe, breath taking scenery)  the Pacific Crest Trail, and then the beautiful biographical story of Cheryl Strayed,her personal struggle, hike of  her life.  To take a 3 month hike alone takes balls, it is the ultimate survival challenge.  It is gutsy to want to stop and face your pain, to figure out why you made poor choices or what caused you to take a hurtful, harmful path.  I am a big advocate for self reflection, analyzation, trying to become the better you.  Learning to see and really appreciate all the beauty around you. That some of our ugly or less imperfect choices are what makes us that much more beautiful in our growth, or part of it.

We all have times that we wonder why certain situations happen to us, some are devastatingly traumatic and we may never fully recover, however, we have to strive to be the best version of ourselves.



It has been on the Internet and now it has been picked up by HBO.  Vice , it is simply  great  global reporting news, it has been doing so since 2007.  It originally started as a magazine, and its vision has evolved.

I just watched their first show on HBO , you can go on YouTube and watch hundreds of their older documentary videos.