Category: About Nat

My Life Story In Segments (1)

After I was born in Spain my dad, mother and I did a tour in Japan. What does that say for my mom, a native Spanish woman traveling and living in Japan.   Too bad that I was little, I would have loved to have had that experience.  I did grade (k-2) in Spain then  (3-5) in Sigonella, Sicily.  We lived in a town called Nicolosi ,  (Google map/earth) it was maybe an hour from Mount Etna.  The Villa we lived in was gated, it was two story but we resided on the top floor it had a huge stair case that led to the top  layer of the upper  house, it had a huge upstairs balcony,the bottom house was not occupied. The bottom floor (yard) was tiled mainly, the back of the house had a maze walkway with a well, some fruit trees, it was just fun and dreamy.   I use to roller skate on it.  I remember the pasta and pizza, I loved the pasta, pizza and the natural sparkling water.

Then my family and I moved to Pensacola, Florida.  The US is very wide and spread open, in Europe roads are smaller, walking was very common in Europe, however in the States  you need a vehicle 80% of the time to go places.  I vaguely remember this time period, but I have moments, like when we were in New Orleans and I had grits for the first time.  I remember the American television being different from Spain, more channels and lots of funny shows.  There seem to be some awareness of the differences in geography, America is very spread out wide roads, a lot of places are driving distance.

To My High School Friends From Spain And Italy, Hello

I think growing up in a military household there were many attributes to it. Travel abroad, opening your mind to the exposure of other cultures, customs, just that the world is a big place( and yet so small).  Europe is so much older than the U.S.,  it is simply amazing to see history still standing.

I hope life has been good and treated you well through the years.  I lost contact with some of you along the way, but there are memories that I will have for always!  High school is a part of our life experience,  our years when we were young and free! I am hoping to check in and see how some of you are doing!  I am sure a lot of you are on facebook. It is a great way to link everyone together.

No More Voids

Important to readers, that this is my version or depiction of emotions and experience in my role as a daughter and sister.   I understand that everyone who is part of a family has there own.  Growing up I always had a void to fill, of being close with my family.  I had my ideal family in my head, that we would play, share, connect and challenge one another, but being a little different, and lacking the tools to bring closeness, I learned to isolate and withdraw myself from sharing or interacting with them.

I spent time with friends, and they were a small outlet for me.   Your peers at a younger age are impressionable to you because they reflect your age, they share your same world of youngsterville.  When we are young, our voice only carries so far, we are just  smaller  intelligent little people.  So for all you parents out there, never dismiss your child because of  their age or size, they were born with a brain just like the rest of us adults.    The magnificent brain that houses all our motor and logic abilities/ skills.  We need validation and acceptance that we are an individual and still  an important piece to the many parts of our family unit.  I did feel ostracized from my family, or reminded that I was different, but in a negative light. We need input from our family but it can not be all ridicule, negative feedback.  Those things stay with you.

I have had mother figures, father figures, sister figures, that stepped in or showed up in my life when my soul needed it.   Luckily I did not substitute my void with drugs, alcohol, men, the vices in the world.  Some where in my divine being I knew I was more than flesh and bones and pain.   We all encounter people that substitute a void and unfortunately for some, they substitute unhealthy and deadly substitutions.  Through the years I have learned to fill that void, exploring within myself  to improve the love for me, to love me, and to carry it over to my family and the world outside of me.  It has always been with me, inside me, the love I have for myself, I just needed to remember and be my best friend and  my own adviser.  No one sees or hears within you but yourself!

I hope my family  comes to understand what has always been in my heart, I would never replace any of them.  I do not hold grudges or look back, we all do what we know how at the time, that is why you have to dig deep within yourself  when you want to be an example of what you want in your life.  When our communication and actions do not convey or express what we truly want to say, or what we need, we should always aspire to strive for that, be better to ourselves and to the world inclusive around us!

About, The Author’s Life

Welcome readers to my Blog !  I hope to give you a little in-site to the Woman behind the words.  I was born to Stan and Rosie, in Rota, Spain, where my Mother is from.  I was given the name Natalia.  I come from a military background, my father use to be in the Navy.  Having a father from Iowa( Luxembourg ancestry) and a mother from Spain, I was predisposed to universal thoughts  from the onset. People are people no matter what country they reside in.  They may have different customs, traditions or language, but the fundamental needs are all the same in each and every country and person.

I graduated from high school in Spain and went on to college.  I took classes in Spain,  my parents were still residing overseas when I decided to see what being independent meant.  (I was 20 at the time).  In Europe it is custom for children to live at home passed the age of 18.  I’m Sure my father and mother had different views on that one!  My father would always tell me I live a sheltered life,  so I wanted to check it out, experience what that meant.  To experience the big world on my own, the transition was different and the concept was kind of hard to wrap my mind around.  I had been with my family for 20 years of my life and now I was on my own, well not entirely.  I moved to the US, Jacksonville, Florida where I was roommates with my friend Danny.  My dad had a friend from Spain who lived in Jacksonville as well, Nick(his family, Peggy, ,Jeff,   and Robin ) they became my extended family.  They were an enormous support group, and my 2nd friends.

I have not completed my education for my BA, or higher, but I would like to. I have traveled cross-country through out the US and just like John Melincamp sings ” ain’t that America, something to see  baby”.  We in the US have a beautiful country, so we need to defend its beauty.

I like to reserve some privacy, but for the most part, I am fairly open and opinionated.