I went to my nephew Landon’s baseball game last night, and enjoyed it. He transitioned from tee-ball to coach-pitch in a matter of 2 months this year. It is amazing how quickly young people soak it all in like sponges, transition seamlessly through change. His Giants team is made up of really good 7-8 year old players. There are a lot of good hitters on his team, and they work together really well. Its amazing to witness his growth from playing tee ball to now.
There are several ball fields were he plays and as we were leaving something stuck out. There was a field of handicap children ranging in different ages, playing tee ball. They had their volunteers next to them, assisting them. It’s wonderful that there are people who dedicate their time to helping out, to make it possible for the mentally and physically challenged to do regular things.
Last week was the first time I have walked a dog since Sandy has been gone (end of January 2013). Coco is a 2 yr old weimaraner. She belongs to a neighbor who has a bad leg, he asked if I would mind walking her on occasion. She is used as a service dog, I have not seen that side of her. It was kind of a weird feeling walking with her at first, different, it wasn’t my Sandy, it brought up sadness, and me missing her instantly. I had a moment and then while we were walking I was thinking it was meant to be for me to have this experience with Coco. A dog is being introduced back into my world. Eventually I will get another dog. Things pop up in mysterious ways, and at unexpected times to you, and I am re learning to not analyze and just go with the flow, with the now. I have struggled for a while with just working no playing, no balance, and not really living, enjoying all the great things outside in the world. I look forward, and toward what is possible. I have always been a true believer that anything is possible. I still have love to give another dog, there is still plenty of love after loss, time is the great healer. There are imprints, markings that people,things that we love, or have loved, leave in our hearts. The marks will be there always, even with whatever new gets added, kind of like scar tissue. Some marks are painful reminders, and others just leave you with a smile.
My Last blog post was on March 31st regarding the discrimination that still goes on against women. We need to fight for, support, and have each others back . I have seen a little shift where women are becoming more fearless. Our younger generations see things less traditional, and are way more exposed to the world, not just their home town, state, or country. Look at Malala , a courageous youth who is fighting for the right for female education ! There is still a lot of unwarranted discrimination regarding race, sexuality, religion, national origin, age, disability, around the world, however, I’m pretty sure women have been targeted the longest through the centuries. Still, no group should be discriminated against period !
I have to admit that I am a hypocrite at times. I have been struggling with balancing work, family, fun, relationships, etc… It has been all work and no play. I have been existing not living for a long period and that is no way to be, or live. I have issues and I hope I will conquer them all. I am at a crossroads in my life. I take ownership that I have not been happy for a while. I need change, want change, and only I can do it ! Aging is not an issue for me, it is a reality, it creeps up slowly, my fountain of youth is entering into another phase, stage in life with things like perimenopause, difficulty reading small print, unaccounted for aches and pains, etc…. I am so blessed I still have my family and a great couple of friends in my life to help me navigate through this maze of life.
I get to share with my family here and abroad the actual locations, places I lived or went to in Jacksonville, Florida. Riverside was one of my favorite areas of Jacksonville. I lived in several places throughout Riverside. I lived off of Hendricks St. I use to walk the streets in the neighborhood and would frequent St Johns Ave. I ate at Biscottis regularly. At one point I resided off Riviera Parkway apartments on the water on the right hand side. I would eat lunch at the Jacksonville Landing when I worked at the State Employees Credit Union (used to be Government Employees Credit Union). I also lived off Riverside Ave. I lived in Jacksonville from 1990 to 2001. I met some amazing people and friends there. It is a place that holds fond memories in my heart.
Today is Valentines Day and I have a lot of love, not only for my honey bunny, for my family and friends who have demonstrated and been an extension of love.
I just started balling. I think I may have found a friend of mine that I have thought of over the years. I have reconnected with a couple of good friends recently, however this one in particular broke a little piece of my heart. I lost contact many years ago. I do not know what the outcome will be, I will try my best and pray for the best. It has been so long that I wonder if she has changed, I do not think so, not her foundation. Of course with years that go by, new experiences, new additions, subtractions, what we choose to keep or extract from our lives modifies us. Things that were important before, become less important, vice versa. She will always have a special place in my heart, she made an imprint and I will always be grateful.
When you lose touch with friends and you reconnect it is nice to feel that even though there was a loss of time, connection, involvement, missing out on each others journey through life, that the bond, the love is still there. I do not have that many friends however the ones I do have are the best, I treasure them.
31 viale della Regione Nicolsi is where I lived ! I loved this house, It was a nice town about 35 minutes from the Naval base. I just pulled it up minutes ago on Google maps/satellite. When I navigate up the street on the left side I get a shot of the side rails and balcony ! It is so neat ! It made me cry seeing my Spain and my old house in Sicily. I remember skating around it downstairs. We lived on the upper level. It had a huge balcony that rapped around half way. Our neighbors right to the left of us Franco and his family, were like family to us. I had a lot of fun times and I spent a lot of time with my sister. I hope my sister and brother will show their children our childhood homes in Europe. (oh my gosh my brother was a new born baby, he will get a kick out of it) I feel blessed to have had such a wonderful experience. I was between the ages of 7-9 years old. I will have to confirm that with my mom, however I’m pretty sure.
If you have ever been to Bodegas El Gato in Rota,Spain then you have been to my uncles place . A bodega is a winery/store/warehouse. Boy do I have beautiful memories of the times that I spent with my moms sister and her family. It was a house full of women, my 4 girl cousins, my uncle and aunt. My aunt Juana is no longer with us however I have so many memories of her nurturing ways, she was an amazing healthy cook). My cousin Chari and I were the same age and we spent a lot of time together. I remember her and I going down to the bodega to bring back coca cola for lunch or sometimes ice cream for our desert. My last visit to Spain was in 2006 and then in 2011 and what a change to his establishment. Well there were big changes to Rota since it had been over 16 Years later that I had stepped foot back on its soil. Two of my cousins, my uncles daughters, have learned the business and work with my uncle. My other two cousins, One is in London working in the Oxford University, and the other works at Hotel Playa De La Luz. Here is Rota , Spain through the eyes of Google earth.
If you have ever been to Pizzeria Burger Ton you have been to my cousins restaurant. I am so proud of my cousins, My Aunt Natalia (an amazing cook and mother) who I am named after, has 4 children and they are some of the most sweetest, and smart people you will ever meet. My cousin Manolo owned this restaurant when I was still living in Spain, my dad being in the Navy was stationed in Rota. My cousin Natalia and Agustin are singers. They sing locally in Rota and have gone to do other gigs in near by towns. My cousin Angeles was a teacher, she has 2 children that she is devoted to.
Google maps view of Pizzeria Burger Ton. It is embarrassing however I never thought to look at Rota, Spain on Google earth until today. I forget what a powerful tool we have and that I can reminisce and look at all the places I went, the laughter, my high school classmates and our amazing times and experiences overseas.and my heart, my bloodline of family that I miss. Here is my parents home in Rota,( Google maps/satellite) it is were I lived growing up, and stayed when I visited.
Hola a todos, os quiero mucho, y pienso siempre en ustedes.
I posted back in December 17 th,2009 in my about Nat category, and written periodically about my family, that I was born in Rota, Spain and my mother is a native as well. It is her home, where her family that we miss dearly resides. I found a military video of footage of Rota and the Naval Base. There is another video in Spanish, by a television show Comando Actualidad, that in this segment goes through Rota, Alicante, Barcelona , Malaga and Palma De Mallorca Spain. It basically talks about other cultural influences, large population of the foreign inhabitants in the 5 cities of Spain. In Rota it is the Americans, in Alicante is the Norwegians, in Barcelona are the Pakistanis, in Malaga the Finnish, in Palma De Mallorca the Germans.
I have been very fortunate to be born by an American father and Spanish mother, this combination and exposure has enhanced my life. Through the videos, I hope to share pieces of the beautiful country.
I have to take a real hard look at making changes in my life. When your body and mind are depleted you have exhausted all the good stuff, the cohesive well oiled machine that your mind and body once were. You are aware that changes need to be made however you keep plugging along until your body breaks down. It got real and serious when I no longer was controlling an outcome. Stress gives you health issues, your diet gives you health issues, overworked, not balancing your fun and work load give you health issues, finances give you health issues, worrying gives you health issues, love gives you health issues. They can become health issues if you do nothing and let them take over. When we do not try to resolve, minimize, or eliminate the issues, our body and mind become a health consequence. Do not ignore the warning signs, some are life threatening. Sometimes the mind wears down before the body or vise versa.
We will always be faced with how we handle or choose to react to problems, stresses, circumstances in our lives. Just do not put it off, figure it out ! Always remember the good too, laugh, Life is responsibility and fun ! As I get older the clearer everything becomes and the less complicated I want things to be.
I’m back again, my break was a little rocky, I hit a wall physically and mentally towards the middle of September. I was down for about 2 and a half months. It was a wake up call, my body was telling me it would no longer continue the way things were. You have to balance work, play, and your relationships. I was all work, no play. We all need to laugh, relax, do things we enjoy besides our job. So you guessed it, I am going to incorporate more play into my life. I have this one journey and I have to make it count. Time goes by faster than you think so I have to do fun however or whenever I can !