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Do Not Focus On The Exterior Around You

July23
By: Nat on July 23, 2017

The video that I put in my blog yesterday was a very tell tell of what has been happening to our children of the world. Hollywood, Disney have always been infiltrated by the devil, the relationship between adults and children, being presented as “acting” all under the umbrella to trick you into thinking what you are seeing is okay, when it never was, the majority of it. Our children are being born and brought up in the most horrible ways. Everything that is created in movies, tv shows is tainted with abominations, even though it seems to present hints of innocence. These children are being abused physically and mentally.  The children that are abused become the abuser, continuing  the cycle to destroy humanity on this earth. They take the most precious innocent and turn them into monsters, look at it for what it really is, and they make money off all of these lives.  If we stopped feeding the monsters they would collapse, we would be choosing love, harmony, connection, not lies, destruction of everything that is good and decent, the continuation of sin, evilness.

When you take a moment to unplug, get clear, invite our true god back into your heart, you will see and hear the truth.  I hardly watch any tv,  I am choosing to find the real, the beauty that had always been.  Not the trickery and lies used on tv, photographs, makeup, plastic surgery, pharmaceutical medicine, politics, etc… it was all done strategically to convince us that we somehow were imperfect, when gods creations were all made beautiful and perfect.  I started to see the bigger picture of good and evil when  dissecting everything.  I would encourage all my brothers and sisters to disengage from the machine and talk to your maker, ask for the guidance to return back to the beauty that you always were, all the answers you were born with, that you always had. Christians have been persecuted for centuries !

Great video by Richie from Boston, he has been putting up great videos for years !

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My Own Awakening

July20
By: Nat on July 20, 2017

I had been struggling for a while in my life, I had 3 or 4 episodes between 2014 and 2017 that I just retreated and did not want contact with anyone, I withdrew, and my body and mind were telling me so. I had time to go within myself and to figure out my, mistakes, hurts, failures, etc..  You have to be willing to be raw and honest with yourself, look at yourself, forgive yourself, love yourself. If you can not be, and live with you, it will never work with anything or anyone. I needed to go back and remember that I was made perfect with love and that I needed to get back to that. I had a lot of unnecessary storage to get rid of, and to release myself from my prison of pollution. I wanted to be and live in the manner that God had blessed me with, he gave this gift, this way of being to everyone. I had not been to a church in decades, I was raised catholic, however I looked at churches and thought for all the churches in the world, we should have a better world.  Where was God, if we are all Christians mirroring his divines ?

For all the churches, why do we have such a division among our brothers and sister?  Well at my last job, something clicked, I met and spoke to many brothers and sister of the community and their faith, their beauty, was apparent to me that the information displayed on tv, newspaper, magazines and some over the internet was a lie, trickery to present a lie about humanity and mother nature, or they were creating a narrative to divide us.  One example, look at hollywood, it is made up by actors, it is a lie,they get sucked, tucked, modified in every which way into idols,  and we think they display true beauty. The majority of high paid actors, music artist, athletes, judges, politicians,lawyers, sold their soul for all their false riches and they have been working tirelessly to get us to their side. They contribute nothing to our world they swim in an ocean of deceit and keep all their wealth,not helping any worldly causes just placed and photographed, unless they are slaves themselves and their lives are lies living in their devils hell. They are used in many facets to con us to confuse us, some of the actors and actresses that people hold in high regard are not the gender they display.  This is all the work of the devil to trick us and make us believe a lie, when God told us the truth, and he is no where for us to listen to him because we bought into lies and trickery.

The deceits, lies go deep into our ways of life around the world.  Our country our world is not what it is suppose to be.  We have been incarcerated for centuries in invisible cages, with the illusion of freedom and the beauty, the abundance that was ours has been hidden, stifled from us.

I understand now that ones words and actions should align otherwise you are polluting the universe. We are energy emitting positive or negative energy. If you are love you are the expression of it, mind body and soul,  you have  free will, the choice to feed yourself properly with all that is love, real and good, truthful, the tree of life. Or you choose from the fruit of knowledge and spread disease.

I reside in the state of Florida, of the united states of america, so I can only speak of the laws, the false made up control where I live, and the 50 states that all this resides in my immediate reality. I understand the big picture affects our whole world.

Relationships, Relation Ships

December6
By: Nat on December 6, 2015

Anything worth having in life requires dedicating time to it. When you are single and off on your own, you only worry about yourself,your shelter, your food supply, your sustainability in the world. Life is easy for one.  Then one day  you stumble upon and meet a human that reflects a lot of your fundamental beliefs/values, a friendship and romantic chemistry that is all encompassed, it’s magic, it’s rare, its kismet!  You make the decision to progress forward with this magical connection, testing it out, making sure its real and not fleeting. Through  time, some individuals escalate the testing to live in the same space and incorporate both lives together, the sustainability now becomes 2 instead of one. So living in the same space brings a slew of  testing elements, each individual brings their way of being, thinking, to the romantic relationship. Within a loving, romantic relationship there has to be a wonderful friendship, and then an awesome individual relationship with our self. Keeping yourself intact is your job, people, places things just enhance your world experience.

Our way of being begins from nurture and nature, our genetics map us (our parents, grandparents, maybe great grandparents, maybe skipping generations) so does your upbringing, in and out of the home  we are raised for those 18 years. Not everyone gets that amount of time, it varies on ones circumstances, their life. Not everyone has or gets siblings, or both parents, or even parents. So as infants we are taught and hopefully guided to perfect our motor skills  , and protect our tender brain spot to help us develop into the adults that we become.  Our personalities develop by 6 and then parents add or subtract from our learning curve, and then we start to add or subtract stuff along our independence journey.

For my first 20 years of life I lived under my parents roof, and they tried to teach me the lessons of life, being responsible, independent, tools to defend myself through my way in the world.  So I had 20 years of juggling advise and observing a couple demonstrate their love, to each other and how they presented their love and their genders to myself and my siblings.  So there are all these relationships going on with each other as well as how my female and male role-model  parents interact with each other, us,individually, and together as a family.  There is a lot going on within the family you are raised in, and there are things that are instilled in you, and when children are finding, and discovering  themselves, parents play a very influential part in the process.

These are stages and dots that I have been connecting and continue to connect in my life.  Introspection and analyzing everything, choices, emotions,people,places and things in my life.

I have data that I collected being raised in my family home, then when I moved away into my own home, being single, I put all my tools, nurture, nature things to test. I had old and new data to analyze, what I was taught as a child and then what I learned being on my own, making all my decisions based on guidance and tools taught to me by my parents. The example they displayed of their loving relationship between a man and woman, their individual gender roles of how a woman and man behave, ( whatever genders a child is raised with) the responsibility that they demonstrated with finances, jobs/work ethic, hygiene, in their choices of behavior towards each other and us. I took all that data and then with  my experiences incorporated all of it into my way of being and thinking. One thing that I found is that children tend to repeat what they learned from their experience in their families.  You observe 18 years of a relationship being played out before your eyes and ears.  Think about how TV influences the masses, so parents definitely leave a mark on their children. That is why you always hear break the cycle whether it is our own world history or our own personal family history that we want to improve.  As Humans we are not perfect, our genetic make up, genes passed down from generations,nature/nurture, effects us all in different ways. So take everything you are exposed to, analyze it and try to improve yourself, what ever predisposed and new data you are dealing with.

Returning After Some Downtime

September9
By: Nat on September 9, 2015

My Last blog post was on March 31st regarding the discrimination that still goes on against women.  We need to fight for, support, and have each others back .  I have seen a little shift where women are becoming more fearless.  Our younger generations see things less traditional, and are way more exposed to the world, not just their home town, state, or country.  Look at Malala , a courageous youth who is fighting for the right for female education ! There is still a lot of unwarranted discrimination regarding race, sexuality, religion, national origin, age, disability, around the world, however, I’m pretty sure women have been targeted the longest through the centuries. Still, no group should be discriminated against period !

I have to admit that I am a hypocrite at times.  I have been struggling with balancing work, family, fun, relationships,  etc… It has been all work and no play. I have been existing not living for a long period and that is no way to be, or live.  I have issues and I hope I will conquer them all. I am at a crossroads in my life. I take ownership that I have not been happy for a while. I need change, want change, and only I can do it ! Aging is not an issue for me, it is a reality, it creeps up slowly, my fountain of youth is entering into another phase, stage in life with things like perimenopause,  difficulty reading small print, unaccounted for aches and pains, etc….  I am so blessed I still have my family and a great couple of friends in my life to help me navigate through this maze of life.

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Jacksonville On My Mind And On Google Maps !

February14
By: Nat on February 14, 2015

I get to share with my family here and abroad the actual locations, places I lived or went to in Jacksonville, Florida. Riverside was one of my favorite areas of Jacksonville. I lived in several places throughout Riverside. I lived off of Hendricks St.  I use to walk the streets in the neighborhood and would frequent St Johns Ave.  I ate at Biscottis regularly.   At one point I resided off Riviera Parkway  apartments on  the water on  the right hand side. I would eat lunch at the Jacksonville Landing when I worked at the  State Employees Credit Union (used to be Government Employees Credit Union).  I also lived off Riverside Ave.  I lived in Jacksonville from 1990 to 2001.  I met some amazing people and friends there.  It is a place that holds fond memories in my heart.

Today is Valentines Day and I have a lot of love, not only for my honey bunny, for my family and friends who have demonstrated and been an extension of love.

Very Emotional Morning

February13
By: Nat on February 13, 2015

I just started balling. I think I may have found a friend of mine that I have thought of over the years. I have reconnected with a couple of good friends recently, however this one in particular broke a little piece of my heart. I lost contact many years ago.  I do not know what the outcome will be, I will try my best and pray for the best.  It has been so long that I wonder if she has changed,  I do not think so, not her foundation.  Of course with years that go by, new experiences, new additions, subtractions, what we choose to keep or extract from our lives modifies us. Things that were important before, become less important, vice versa.  She will always have a special place in my heart, she made an imprint and I will always be grateful.

When you lose touch with friends and you reconnect it is nice to feel that even though there was a loss of time, connection, involvement, missing out on each others journey through life, that the bond, the love is still there.  I do not have that many friends however the ones I do have are the best, I treasure them.

My Sicily Italy

February10
By: Nat on February 10, 2015

31 viale della Regione Nicolsi is where I lived ! I loved this house, It was a nice town about 35 minutes from the Naval base. I just pulled it up minutes ago on Google maps/satellite. When I navigate up the street on the left side I get a shot of the side rails and balcony ! It is so neat ! It made me cry seeing my Spain and my old house in Sicily. I remember skating around it downstairs. We lived on the upper level.  It had a huge balcony that rapped around half way. Our neighbors right to the left of us Franco and his family, were like family to us. I had a lot of fun times and I spent a lot of time with my sister.   I hope my sister and brother will show their children our childhood homes in Europe. (oh my gosh my brother was a new born baby, he will get a kick out of it) I feel blessed to have had such a wonderful experience.  I was between the ages of 7-9   years old.  I will have to confirm that with my mom, however I’m pretty sure.

 

My Family In Rota Spain, My Memories

February8
By: Nat on February 8, 2015

If you have ever been to Bodegas El Gato in Rota,Spain then you have been to my uncles place . A bodega is a winery/store/warehouse.  Boy do I have beautiful memories of  the times that I spent with my moms sister and her family. It was a house full of women, my 4 girl cousins, my uncle and aunt. My aunt Juana is no longer with us however I have so many memories of her nurturing ways, she was an amazing healthy cook). My cousin Chari and I were the same age and we spent a lot of time together.  I remember her and I  going down to the bodega to bring back coca cola for lunch or sometimes ice cream for our desert. My last visit to Spain was in 2006 and then in 2011 and what a change to his establishment.  Well there were big changes to Rota since it had been over 16 Years later that I had stepped foot back on its soil.   Two of my cousins, my uncles daughters, have learned the business and work with my uncle.  My other two cousins, One is in London working in the Oxford University, and the other works at Hotel Playa De La Luz.  Here is Rota , Spain through the eyes of Google earth.

If you have ever been to Pizzeria Burger Ton you have been to my cousins restaurant.  I am so proud of my cousins, My Aunt Natalia (an amazing cook and mother) who I am named after, has 4 children and they are some of the most sweetest, and smart people you will ever meet. My cousin Manolo  owned this restaurant  when I was still living in Spain, my dad being in the Navy was stationed in Rota. My cousin Natalia and Agustin are singers. They sing locally in Rota and have gone to do other gigs in near by towns. My cousin Angeles  was a teacher, she has 2 children that she is devoted to.

Google maps view of Pizzeria  Burger Ton.  It is embarrassing however I never thought to look at Rota, Spain on Google earth until today.  I forget what a powerful tool we have and that I can reminisce and look at all the places I went,  the laughter, my high school classmates and our amazing times and experiences overseas.and my heart, my bloodline of family that  I miss. Here is my parents home in Rota,( Google maps/satellite) it is were I lived growing up, and stayed when I visited.

Hola a todos, os quiero mucho, y pienso siempre en ustedes.

I Am An American Spaniard

February1
By: Nat on February 1, 2015

I posted back in December 17 th,2009 in my about Nat category,  and written periodically about my family, that I was born in Rota, Spain and my mother is a native as well.  It is her home, where her family that we miss dearly resides.  I found a military video of footage of Rota and the Naval Base. There is another video in Spanish, by a television show Comando Actualidad,  that in this segment goes  through Rota, Alicante, Barcelona , Malaga  and Palma De Mallorca Spain. It basically talks about other cultural influences, large population of the foreign inhabitants in the 5 cities of Spain.  In Rota it is the Americans, in Alicante is the Norwegians,  in Barcelona are the Pakistanis, in Malaga the Finnish,  in Palma De Mallorca the Germans.

I have been very fortunate to be born by an American father and Spanish mother, this combination and exposure has enhanced my life. Through the videos, I hope to share pieces of the beautiful country.

Improvements To Things That Already Exist

January25
By: Nat on January 25, 2015

I have to take a real hard look at making changes in my life.  When your body and mind are depleted you have exhausted all the good stuff, the cohesive well oiled machine that your mind and body once were.  You are aware that changes need to be made however you keep plugging along until your body breaks down.  It got real and serious when I no longer was controlling an outcome. Stress gives you health issues, your diet gives you health issues, overworked, not balancing your fun and work load give you health issues, finances give you health issues, worrying gives you health issues, love gives you health issues.  They can become health issues if you do nothing and let them take over. When we do not try to resolve, minimize, or eliminate the issues, our body and mind become a health consequence.  Do not ignore the warning signs, some are life threatening.  Sometimes the mind wears down before the body or vise versa.

We will always be faced with how we handle or choose to react to problems, stresses, circumstances in our lives. Just do not put it off, figure it out !  Always remember the good too, laugh,  Life is responsibility and fun ! As I get older the clearer everything becomes and the less complicated I want things to be.

 

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