I Look at a lot of different information to find what is really going on in the world. I mentioned in a previous post I had lost my job last February. It was politics, yet while I was there, it was no accident, I got to see the real community, that people are good, good and horrible behavior were exchanged by employees and customers to each other, vice versa…however the good out weighed by a lot, so when I listened to the fakery shakery doomsville news on tv It did not make any sense. The constant doom and gloom messages, murder, judgement of race, gender, religion,politics it was repeated over and over, yet I did not see any of that. . Most of the messages come from tv, what do we know about tv ? Well we learned from tv shows, hollywood, that they are always creating, making up worlds, people, to look real,or be in another place by trick photography, cameras, lens….etc.. So they can use trickery to make us see something that is not really happening. Most human beings respect each other, it is just the polluted message in tv, magzines, newspapers that mix the lie with the truth. all the division tactics,, that get people roweled up, not really looking into what is being shown, and said, or questioning what is being shown or said.
I finally started to piece my puzzle together. I gathered information from everywhere, looking into everything I had questions about and things that made no sense no reason to its rhyme. I did figure out that it all comes back to me, not meism , I do not have all the answers to my questions, however I am much closer. I am one of many created creations in the universe made by God, I had the indoctrinated version of religion, the story of god in the bible, the truth is that we all got a copy, yet not all the written , or truth information, its scattered like a puzzle and unfortunately many are still not understanding or getting the real truth.. ” People parish because of lack of knowledge“.
This awesome video by Casey, Enterthe5t4rz , he has been doing this decoding for several years, upon the bible, movies, music videos, symbols, numbers, A lot of his work was taken down so he had to reformat and build it back So many things have a different meaning to the devils kingdom, the yin and yang of our world. Dark/light, seen/hidden, good/evil, lie/truth, he took the good and made bad copies of everything to tricks us and blame God, for all the death and destruction so we would be fooled in never believing in the most high, God. and turn our souls over to the devil. The truth has always been in us and around us, we just have to remember the all..
Continuing from my last post. Many individuals take in the mis information of their parents and then the information that tv, news, governmental constructs, etc…all these things are inputs that are poured in our brains ( when did some of us ever think to question all the input ? ) All this outside information cluttering our brain, family information coming in, all these different data outlets, channels being inputted and we are not prioritizing it, testing it, researching it. When becoming adults we are at an age where we venture out and develop some of our own opinions ( most people get drowned out by their parents beliefs and opinions, or others, never discovering their own). We are not born to be mini clones of our parents,or anyone else, we were born to be ourselves.
So we get to an age where we can defend ourselves physically and verbally amongst our peers , We start to figure ourselves out and the information bombarding us. We explore our world, we go out and collect more information getting positive and negative feed back. We get caught in a trap, or traps, of never analyzing everything, we see, hear, read, etc.. It is like we have this huge data dump in our brains and we are not making sense of it. So this data, some of it ugliness, sadness, that we spin inside us, like a hamster on a spinning wheel, we keep spinning it,( whatever age an individual starts to pile heart pain, ugly, negative emotional memories ) they surface, we spin them around, they affect our mood,, our health, its spinning so we are missing all the real, that is really in front of us. We are so polluted between good and bad, misinformation, cluttering clogging our input, out put, transmissions ( like our computer when it is filled with a lot of files, some of us defrag our computer on a weekly bases to clean up all the junk files to consolidate, figure out what is important and truly needed and eliminate mess slowing it down) . We need to unclutter our lives our mess. When your house is a mess it gets difficult to navigate around areas of your home, you are walking around things that could be harmful., you are blocked from areas because they are filled with a hot mess of things. Well each one of us,, our selves is our home, I like to think of my home, myself, with my antena ( it can be emitting good or bad, I believe if your antenna is tuned in its a give and take interaction between you and the universe) on, or I am a battery, that can have a positive charge incoming and outgoing, I choose positive, and when my home is cluttered I can not receive or put out a positive charge. So the only way I Knew to put out the best output was to unclutter, look at all my data, no matter how daunting, scary, the pile seemed. I was not going to be trapped, imprisoning myself of unknown collections
When we each,one of us decides to finally be honest with him/ herself, to look at all the hurt, anger, pain, etc…. ugly emotions we have each stuffed down through the years , and the hurt we knowingly caused others, we have to look at all of it, you can not skip or overlook one single thing, otherwise it will still remain. No one gets a free pass, unfortunately we were misinformed by parents who were misinformed by theirs. We were born into a world that was coded, with symbols, numbers, colors, designated landmarks, things that we were never taught or told about. We were given all these rules to abide by and we never thought to really question them.
I felt this video by Mark Passio explains our own individual need for alignment, to make our selves, and our world a better place.
So all children who grew up able to defend themselves, we had old information and constant incoming information we were absorbing, were we really learning from it ? This is where self awareness, knowing ones self, being treated the way you want to be treated is key. Who are you, what do you believe, what are you basing that belief on? How do you interact with everything around you ? What is your role, your interactions, words, thoughts that you put out ? What is your responsibility as a creation of all creations in this universe ? We do not come to understand how significant we each are until we each become aligned with our own thoughts, feelings and actions. Did you ever hear the terms double speak, manipulate, withhold, hide,secrets, etc….Our thoughts feelings and actions have to be saying the same thing. People can try to deceive, think one way and do another, and they will never get what they want until it all matches, that is when you are true through and through,. each individual has to be thinking, feeling and doing the trifecta, is what is needed, when those three things are aligned, you are in pureness, it all matches, one is not hiding the other, it all matches, so it carries all the positiveness, it carries truth. I believe when you become truth you become in tuned with the all mighty one, because he created the universe in its perfection and you are behaving your way to reconnecting with all that is.
We were tricked to not believe in ourselves and the amazing universe inside us, we are part of this universe , we are earth, water, air, fire, all that was perfectly created. People, human beings can be assholes, can behave ugly but that is because they have not searched internally to face all the things, question all that is in front and not in front of them. The governmental construct hid away the important and made visible the unnecessary. For one to get this and be it you have to do your own work, I can not wish it to you. If your car breaks down, you take it to get fixed. Well why do many not try to fix themselves ? A human is way more important than a vehicle in my truth.. We are beauty, love we just have to remember that everything of beauty is in all of us, you just have to discover it and express, its beauty expressed through your thoughts , your sound, words, typing, videos, photos, everything that you put out has a matter weight to it, so make it matter or do not..
So I have been pretty open about my personal struggles through out my life with friends, family members, my blog, however, not completely with my immediate family, it has been a work in progress.. I know my sadness started back when I was a kid, and it was shoved deep down. I have shared in earlier post about some of this ,I was aware that I wanted things to be nicer, to see and feel different. I am the oldest of my three siblings , This is my version, what I internalized and decoded.
For some reason growing up I was not as close to my family as I would have like to have been, We were close, however, there was this invisible heartfelt difference between my family and I, I felt different or made to feel different, like my personality, way of being me, was not completely acceptable. I have mentioned before in earlier post that I was called an airhead, I would shut down conversations as soon as I heard and felt the ugliness being spoken, an unfriendly, unkind tone.I would just stop conversing abruptly and not respond to the ugly tone directed at me. As a kid you do not name it, label it, you just feel it in your heart, a sadness. I had a great family, however there was a lot of negativity, people/adults tend to continue their negative ways, thinking the other person or other people are going to fix the situation, however, if a child is born into a team, the coaches have to participate and help their fellow players. Parents need to see themselves as life coaches, if you want a loving, supporting team/children, players, behaved players well show them, guide them, to becoming, behaving their way into the family team.they were put in. No one can put anothers intentions, actions into the world, one has to do it him or herself. I understand children because I was a child , that child who was powerless against the adults, my parents. Children react to their parents reaction, so if a parent is speaking ugly, the child will speak or react ugly. Children are innocent, vulnerable, they are completely dependent on their parents/adults, for at least the first 15 years of their lives. When you have a child, it is your responsibility to be the best, do the best, to show and make a child feel love, and to be seen and heard, no matter their age.. So because I felt my self being ridiculed, not acceptable, made to feel there was something wrong with me, I retreated. I put a gate around my heart.. As a young child I did not have the tools, or knew about any tools yet in my tool box, to make changes. Back then, being smaller in a world of giants, I did not have power, or was not on the same playing field to request or make those changes.
So about 5 years ago I started to see and feel that my sadness started to take a toll on me physically and mentally.( It was a familiar feeling that was in a pit inside of me that came back louder) I had my boyfriend in my life, and things were just not working the way they should feel, and be, I had a job doing landscaping where it was male dominated, I was constantly defending my abilities or proving them , these were two of the many things tugging at my heart, breaking it little by little, so during the last five years I started to retreat from people, myself, I would disappear and then reappear. It was finally me allowing myself to be in the sadness, dissecting it, owning it, when you runaway from whatever emotions, they do not go away, you have to come up with a solution to the problem yourself, no one else can do it for you or be it for you. People/individuals will continue to spread their crap, ugliness, disrespect, around in the world , and it will come back over and over until they decide to make a change to see that change.
It is a new year and I am hoping that we will create, come together around each other, family, friends, community, the world. There are a lot of things going on in our world that a lot of our brothers and sisters are not aware of. We are in a battle of good vs evil, there are many groups around the world fighting, traveling, typing, blogging, pod casting, you tubing coding, and decoding ,true information about the real truth, the real true world that was and has been hidden and unknown to us. The wonderful people have been uncovering the information decoding the symbols, numbers, the worlds geographical latitude and longitude, the monuments, around the world and all there true meanings surrounding them and us.
So I have been posting their (labor of love) information on my fb page for a while, it is important to share . I can not capture everyone, however I appreciate you all. I have been somewhat low key, I have been voicing my concerns about everything through my blog since 2009 and my fb page since 2010. On fb I was not very supportive by liking or commenting on individuals work because I was afraid that I would lose my privacy, or be messed with, I’m ashamed to admit it however I am all in now.
I have a little concern, I have posted fb and you tube videos by Cindy Kay Currier, periodically mentioning her in my post. Yesterday I was going to check in to see what she had to say and discovered that her Rise Together yt channel, as well as fb, page have been taken down. It will be disturbing if powers that be took it down, Some truth channels were having strikes and a block put on them, is it the same thing happening to Cindy? And what about people questioning her validity, I say yes question, however, I did not discern that she spent at least 4 years making tons of videos for nothing.. Is the verbal exchange real, or is it just moving the energy around ? Another thing, I am questioning , why I am not seeing, the “for the people, for the world” groups have much interaction with each other, some voiced coming together in concern of their channels being taken down , however I do not hink there was much visible evidence of that, (if it is happening behind the scenes, great!) so there has to be a coming together, even if it is behind the scenes, you are all different, yet sharing similar intent. There is a difference when you disagree with someone versus being fake, ugly nasty, so the bigger the numbers, the more it will drown out the self replicating, powerful ugly data machine.